Unconditional Love

This past week has been really tough.
Life isn’t always easy but I am so thankful for unconditional love.
It’s what has kept me going and still keeps me believing that all will be well.
I never knew that so many people could and would choose to show up for me like they’ve done.

If I ever doubted how much I am loved, I now know that I am.
I have always felt at home, safe and well loved in this relationship and this week proved me right.
It’s also an exceptional bonus to feel this love from friends and family.

I want to open up my heart in gratitude and love to say thank you to my support team.
Though the road is tough, with you by my side, I know that I can make it.

I am ready for new beginnings and to hopefully look forward to the future with dreams and desires being fulfilled.

We can’t always walk our path alone and it isn’t weak to need support.
Life is about love, being there for each other and showing up.
Love makes the tough times easier. The days when the tears won’t stop and heart breaks over and over filled with fear, pain and sadness, love picks us up .

Thank you love for picking me up. For the snuggles, cuddles and words of encouragement.

I am so very grateful for love.

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Fire and passion determines success

Having a solid foundation means that even when things are rocky and you shake or bend, you will not break.
It’s about going through the mill and coming out stronger and much more refined.

You see, life has a way of teaching us new lessons in every experience. Some we learn and some we take no notice of, until we keep getting knocked over the head.
Either ways, we get there eventually.

Everyone has their own story and struggle.
We don’t get from point to point and stage to stage without learning something.

Remember to enjoy the journey to your destined path.
Be aware, be open, be brave and do your best.

If you believe and are passionate about anything, go after it. Don’t let anything stop you.

It’s a beautiful things to sit back and see how far you’ve come.

Never give up.
If you want something bad enough you’ll have it.

Love & Light

A Casual Conversation

An unexpected cold has come on from nowhere really.

My head is so stuffy and my nose and throat feel like they are on fire.

My body feels a bit weary , yet my mind is busy, busy going many miles an hour so I’ve decided to slow down for a bit and listen to my body.

This week found me trying to re-evaluate things, reconnect , reflect, do some soul searching  and  a bit of tweaking.

My life these days is filled with finding my creativity and coming up with worth while projects to benefit those I come into contact with.

It’s not always easy and there are always many ideas and sometimes no direction or sense of implementing them.

It can be a bit frustrating when you want to do so much , yet resources are so limited.

Nevertheless, the show must go on and dreams keep coming.

This week I thought I would take a chance to de-clutter my brain and try to find clarity with many things.

There is work, there’s family, relationships, friends, hobbies, dreams and ideas all needing nurturing.

There are many subsets to these compartments in life.

It’s nice to be free and go with the flow, but then one also needs discipline and deadlines to achieve anything.

I figure this is where it begins.

If I want to write, then I need to write more and be consistent.

To maintain relationships, one must find time to ring, text, email and or visit, as time goes quickly leaving room for regrets and ‘what ifs’ .

If I want to be more creative, then I need to open myself to more ideas, different ways of doing things, be open to change and be brave as I allow myself to explore.

There are dreams and aspirations and all those little things that become big things when they drive our passion and desires.

Life is about balance, about love, about looking after ourselves.

This brings me to a new focus which is nothing to do with crazy dieting, but well balanced health.

Eating and drinking right, having enough exercise and sleep.

At this point, sleep is not as straight forward for me as it could be.

I have always had this love -hate relationship with sleep where I love it and would sometimes like more of it especially at nights but it is quite the opposite.

I am a nocturnal person and it can be very difficult to go to bed at a decent time but I do try .

When that doesn’t happen, I try to use my time wisely and productively to create, dream, build and find ways forward.

I know that I only have one body, and as I grow older and hopefully wiser, I appreciate life a lot more than I ever did before.

All the simple things in life make me happy.

I am being more of who I am and I worry less and less of what others may think.

I am more considerate and compassionate.

I am finding my inner child again and dreaming big once more,

I see people for who they are and enjoy trying to get to know and understand them.

I am much more open to other ideas and ways of thinking.

I can listen without imposing my point of view .

I don’t have to argue just because I disagree and this is making life much more easy for me.

I embrace this world , its people, all of creation and I embrace me.

I know this may have been all over the place today and I apologise if I bore anyone but it feels so good just emptying my brain.

With  much love and light

until next time.

Poeticlibran

xx

Crying on byways

Are you sitting by on byways crying over yesterday or are your eyes placed forward, working on a better today?

Are you wasting time thinking of all the many somebodies who’ve screwed you over, or are you moving on,  now that you’ve dropped old baggage and your load is now lighter?

Stop blaming the past when it has only made you stronger.
Stop crying over those who no longer give thought over you.

Stop hiding yourself inside your heart, wrapped off in mental walls that keep crippling you, weakening you.

Thank your stars for the journey, enjoy the ride to new shores.
Leave behind what no longer serves you.

Diary Confessions – Chapter One

Dear diary, today it happened again.  He waited while she was asleep and then crept into my bed. He did things no grownup should do to an innocent child. I didn’t fight it this time. I laid there in silence and took myself to a happy place; a place where no one could hurt me and place where a little girl’s dream comes true and where dragons are sleighed.  You see diary, you are my only friend. I can trust you. I can write my pain away and confide in you. You never judge me. You don’t tell me that I am wrong, or call me a liar. You don’t make me feel guilty for wanting to be a little girl.

It gets harder each time, but I lose myself and go to a better place. I think at this time I am confused as to which is reality and which is fantasy. I feel good when I fly away. When I get there, I find a mother who loves me and wants to be in my life. I find a dad who chooses me for once and not shirk his responsibilities. I look at the happy children at school and I wish and yearn for their sense of family. No one knows what goes on; I don’t think anyone even cares.

I started my first period during the Easter holidays. Do you know that I am only 10 years old? It was a bit scary at first and I wasn’t sure what to do. I finally told her and you know what she asked? She asked me, “Are you sure you haven’t been with any boys?”  I felt my heart break into a million pieces and what was supposed to be my first experience into womanhood brought me humiliation and shame. How could she even think that at my age? Then again maybe she had good reason. After all every night while she sleeps he comes without fail.

I feel cheap and I feel dirty. Who can I tell? Who will believe me? How long must I endure? If I do say anything, where will I go? I have no one really? No one really cares. I am breaking into a million pieces. These adults sure are blind, or do a great job pretending to be. When I grow up I will never have kids.  If I do I will probably have them on my own so no one can abuse them. I feel so horrible. What kind of person am I? What kind of woman will I grow up to be? I am dirty, I am defiled and not even my mother wants me.

 

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For your love

Today, I am grateful for my partner, my lover and best friend who loves me at my worst and at my best. Who sticks by me, even when I am stubborn and mardy and just being plain old difficult . Thank you for being there through thick and thin. My shoulder to cry on, the arms that comforts me when I think I’ve had enough but most importantly for all you do for me, for us and being there to share in my success, my joy, new ventures and adventures. We share the tears but also the joys.
iLoveYou to the moon and back a million times over. Thank you universe for our match. For all of this, I am indeed grateful.

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For Sophie

We cry when our loved ones depart
If only we understood that they will always be in our hearts
The Almighty above, calls his chosen to a new dimension
To those of us left behind,we are protected from the wings of a dove.
Go on and cry if you must but I know we will meet again.
Not a day goes by that I don’t miss you Sophia. You would have been 24 this June.
You taught me how to be a little mummy at a very tender age.
When you came into this world I adored you like no other.
You were my cousin but I loved you like a sister.
I’ll never forget you
I will always love you
Heaven needed you, even if we wanted more time with you
You loved the ocean and it was the very thing that took you away.
I guess that’s why I love the sea so much, it keeps me close to you.
I wish we could have celebrated your 24th baby girl, but God needed you in another world. I am confident that you’re looking over us, our guardian angel, so precious in our hearts.

Sometimes it feels like yesterday
I keep missing you like you were gone today
I’ve bottled all the memories in my heart our little mermaid of the sea
Love from all of us
We know you’re smiling down, so here are kisses just for you
I know each time I go to sleep you are watching over me
If I depart from this side of earth, I would be more than happy to hug you again
From my heart to yours
I love you and missed you just a little bit extra today, but I will be okay.

Grateful for the 12 years we had. Till we meet again, big hugs baby girl.

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I endured it all

My heart did cry
My eyes did tear
My burden heavy
Smiles so rare.

But through it all I did stand tall
I kept going, listening to the universe’s call
And through the pain, struggles and toil
I bore it all, I did not fall.

The sun did shine
The smiles returned
My pain dissolved
I danced with joy
So full of pride
I endured the ride.

With head held high
Eyes towards the sky
I focused, I progressed, I walked the mile
The stubborn me refused to fall by the way side.

Hope never left my eyes
Nor  did faith abandon my heart
Little hurt my pride did feel
But I wasn’t too proud
Soon I’d heal.